I think, I should tell you the truth. The words in passage<Giving> I wrote befor is true. After that, I lied. Because of my  pride, I don't want to be a fool. But I make myself  a fool actually. If it is a cup of tea, it couldn't be change to a cup of coffee .I don't know whether I should believe what you said to me. Or maybe I should treat it as a joke. But ,the fact that I love you coulde be change.

And then, I lied, after you said that everything was unexist. I did realize to conflexed when you said that,for the feeling of guity that I refused your request.But do you know? You are the fist man that who say loving me while I loving him.I think you couldn't understand that.

Maybe you are afraid of being hurt,so you left me.Yes ,I love Wind.But I found that the feeling between us just like we are families.That's different from the feeling when I loving you.I didn't feel sad when I heard that he got a girlfriend. On the country, I feel happy and I pray for him.We are just families.

I really don't want to get anything from saying these words, for so many influences I have brought to your life. I will no more ask to be your girl friend, no more wasting your time, I just want you to know that I love you.That's all I can say to you .

我觉得,我还是应该说清楚
之前那篇<给予>说的话都是真的.后来是说谎了.因为骄傲,我不想让你觉得我是个傻瓜.但是我事实上就是个傻瓜.因为,有些东西是真的,不能够把它变成假的.你说过的话,我真的不知道应该相信还是只是当儿戏.但是,真实的是,我喜欢你.
后来,说谎了,在听到你说,那一切都是假的时,的确当时的感觉是放松了,因为当时心里被不能答应你的要求的内疚而充斥着,因为你的话而突然放松了.但是,再看回那些短信,我还是想相信那些话是真的,因为,你知道吗,那是第一次有人说喜欢我.说爱我.我想你不会明白那种感觉的.
也许是你怕被伤害,而离开了.的确,我爱着风,但是,渐渐的,那种感觉变成了就像家人一样的爱,和喜欢的感觉是完全不一样的,听到他有女朋友时,我不会吃醋,反而会祝福他过得好一点.我想,那只是牵挂,一份家人得牵挂.
我跟你说这些,不想再挽回什么,因为我发现真的给你的生活带来了诸多影响.只是想告诉你,有个女孩子,还是喜欢着你的.
被伤害后,你是第一个让我还这么有激情来写这么多话的人.不再要求做你的女朋友,不想耽误你时间了.只希望你知道,说喜欢你,没有骗你.